ppl, see my tagboard over there? ========>
yup. some tags are nonsense. i don't even know the people...
yeah whatever lah... i'll let them post what they want
if they wanna get **** then go the geylang... im sure they'll have no problems
anyway went shopping for my work clothes with clara.
we took the train like more than 5 times to get all my stuff...
thanks clara.
i mean really.
anyway originally wanted to watch a movie
but decided to screw the idea cause we're both too tired...
feet are aching now...
she said something that made perfect sense today.
i dont want to admit it but here goes...
when i talk about other people, i do sound bitchy and irritating
i dont know how to speak nowadays
yes Shina, the one who got good marks for english oral
doesn't know how to speak...
as in, then tone and all that.
so from now on i think im going to keep quiet
unless someone talks to me...
that way i won't get misunderstood, AND i wont offend anyone
like i did with someone this week
i think i've had it with being patient with ppl who don't get my idea
if they don't get me i'll just leave it as that
unless they really want to understand then i'll explain again
those who've been reading my blog will know what i'm talking about
yesterday's issue about that someone, ya i'm leaving it as that
im accepting it, as much as it irritates and pisses me off to do so
im accepting it. period im not talking about it anymore.
even if that person brings it up, im not going to talk, i'll keep my mouth zipped.
work starts on monday. oh joy. i dont get to be at home the whole day.
it's perfect. im earning money, i'm gonna treat my family to hard rock cafe.
and my cousins to sakae sushi.
how nice of a person am i?
i don't think im all that lah.
nicole keep telling me how good enough a person i am.
i don't think im that good.
actually i dont really like myself.
im ok with the way i am.
as in im fine with the way i am but not satisfied
as in contented. not satisfied.
when i think about what i've done, it's always coming back as a bad thing
i dont know why.
i feel like im always in the wrong
maybe i am always in the wrong
because im a stupid 16 year old
and the elders are always right.
yes of course. im 16 and naive and stupid and oblivous.
i've been this way since sec one
honestly im not one who will shout it out to the whole world but yeah
the plan now is to keep as much to myself as possible.
i'll tell my friends if they pry it out of me.
but other than them, i don't think anyone should know what's in my head
or what's going on in my mind.
i'll just shut the hell up when other people are talking
i'll just be i a world of my own
and read the news, the papers, log on the web to get some GK....
but who care if i have as much GK as isaac right? i don't.
i dont really care how much i know...
in fact my only concern now is my o level results, work and dancing
it means a lot to me. no one can understand how i feel...
well, not many people can unless they are dancers and they are super serious about dancing or their own interests...
who wants to know how pathetic i am?
no one.
yeah i am pathetic am i?
dunno lah
self esteem very low now.
it'll get better later i hope...........
oh yeah....
when i got home today,
i found out that my bro got a brand new phone.
i get shit and he gets a phone.
oh wow.
yay
oh joy.
thanks a lot hor...
i appreciate it... you know...?
telling me how unimportant i am
i never got a new phone in my life. yes, NEVER.
