posted on Wednesday, December 31, 2008
while everyone is out with their friends
counting down to the new year in just a couple of
hours away, here i am once again all alone...
i haven't gone to a countdown in years...
i hoped to spent this year's with the new friends i have
made, but it seems that they all of other people who are
more important to them....
i will spend the first minute of the new year
thinking about you... (:
i wonder where you are with your friends...
even though i just saw you yesterday,
i'm still missing you...
it's like this longing for you to be by my side...
maybe i'm just exhausted and in need
a good rest before continuing my flash trailer...
screw New Year's eve...
it's just like any other night i suppose...
the time is right;
{9:22 PM}
posted on Saturday, December 27, 2008
hey guys!
if you're wondering why i haven't been blogging...
it's because...
I WAS CLEANING UP MY ROOM!!!!!
hahaha... how random right?
but i found it too messy and dusty everywhere
that i irritated the hell outta me
then i decided it was time for spring cleaning!!!
i threw out loads of stuff...!!!
now you can sit on the floor and you can sit
even when the bed's been pulled out!
YEAH!!! XDDD
and yes it actually felt good to clean up my room...
it felt even better to have a proper work station now...
hahaha!!! i finally cleared my table
of all the crappy secondary school worksheets!!!
well not ALL of them... i still keep my tuition notes just in case... :)))
i still have a little bit to clean up...
but that can wait until spring cleaning
for Chinese New Year...
hahahaa...
Updates on Christmas...
Here are my presents:
well i got the EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE i was dreaming about
for the past i dunno... 6-7 months...?
Thanks Uncle Damian and Uncle Julian!!! I love you guys...!!!
then i got a Victoria's Secret nightshirt which is so freaking coooolll.....
Thanks Aunty Sandy and Uncle Adrian!!! ^_^
(forgot to take picture... was too busy wearing it alr!)
And then i got a very nice pouch with 2 little cut-off-like shirts...
and facial wash, hair gel.... and i think it was lipstick!!!
hahaa... Thanks Uncle Fabian and Family!!! ^_^
so Christmas wasn't as bad as i thought it would've been...
yeah... it's just that i wished we could've stayed up longer
to like... i dunno...? open the pressies altogether? hahaa...
yes yes... Shina is kind old fashion... but what can i say?
i like to follow tradition once in a while.... ^_^
ooh oooh ooh!!!
and i got a Canon EXTERNAL FLASH!!!
WHOOOTS!!!! *jumps for joy*
THANKS UNCLE FABIAN!!!!
now i'm ready for more photoshoots!!!
and i don't have to care about the lighting! hahaha!!!
oooh which brings me back to the subject of my assignments... T_T
i've been slacking off during this holiday...
and no, i'm no where near completion of my assignments... T^T
at least the part one of photography is pretty much cleared...
typo is like... shit... i haven't touched it since my last consultation with the lecturers...
which was on... hmmm... the 3rd of Dec?
hahahaa... that was 2 days before DT was due... yups...
so anyway... i'm blogging because i saw that
almost everyone blogged about their Christmas...
and yeah... i think we didn't take any photos this year...
although all of us were gathered and eating dinner and having fun...
we didn't take pictures cause i think everyone was too busy eating
all the delicious food that everyone chipped in to bring for dinner....
hahahaa... well not too bad...
on Christmas Day i got some pictures that i could
use for my photography assignment...
cause i asked my sweet sweet sweet cousins to pose for me... XDDD
i'll upload them once i'm done editing... hahaa...
and no, photography is NOT easy people...
i NEED 50 themes and i haven't exactly thought of
them all and i haven't exactly started shooting for all of the themes that i currently have...
OMG OMG OMG...
i'm so fucking screwed...
BUT I CAN DO IT IF I DO MY BEST!
the time is right;
{10:46 PM}
posted on Wednesday, December 24, 2008
I WANT THIS CAMERA!!!!!!!!
CANON POWERSHOT G10
but i'm not counting on getting it EVER... T_T
whatever it's Christmas eve... i shall pretend to be happy...
for the sake of everyone....
but they'll ignore me anyway...
so what's the point?
the time is right;
{12:28 PM}
posted on Tuesday, December 23, 2008
i'm like damn sad mann...
i can't seem to sleep any longer than 5 hours....
T_T i'm so tired...!!!!
anyway gonna help minhua with a photoshoot later...
gonna help him do Nasha's makeup...
should be fun!!!
Christmas is coming....
Christmas eve tomorrow...
not sure how it will go...
because we're all grown up...
doesn't seem to be as fun
as it was before when we're
all running around and
playing with the toys we
got in our presents...
There's no more fun in just
tearing off the wrapper anymore...
maybe i've grown up and need
to spend Christmas elsewhere...
but Christmas is all about family...
and i'm stuck with my family every
Christmas even if i do see them
constantly throughout the year...
oh well... i can't do anything now...
Can i?
i'm in absolutely NO position
to make any of the decisions...
i never was and i never will be...
that is also one thing that
contributes to this SIAN-SATION...
Christmas was not supposed to feel
like that...
maybe spending the first
half of Christmas eve with
SDZ should get me in the mood...
hmmmmmmmm............................
oh yeah i changed my blog layout...
the previous one was getting
too old and like...
childish for me i guess....?
actually i don't feel all
that psyched about Christmas this year...
maybe it's because i got assigments...
maybe it's because of everything
that's going on clumped together
to give me this feeling....
or maybe it's because i didn't
spend Christmas with my parents
for two years in a row
that made me like this....
yeah it sounds so ridiculous
but yeah.... i can't exactly explain it...
i needa cheer up... and fast!!!!
but i just can't seem to do so on my own... T^T
the time is right;
{10:45 AM}
posted on Monday, December 22, 2008
it's been awhile since i took down a post...
well anyway... i got this sian-sation...
i suck man... super lousy...
not liking the fact that i'm slacking my butt off
this holiday and doing assignments
at the very last minute... -.-
gonna have potluck at miss huei's place later!!
whoootss!!! yeah!!!
but the down side is that i'm
broke after spending on that
present for the gift exchange thing later...
OMGZZ... no $$ again... T_T
and i still owe ppl money...
and ppl still owe me money...
which i will not get until january...
WTH... FINE... FINE...
i was being too generous...
been doing nothing until now...
dunno what else to do...
maybe edit somemore pictures...
have somemore photoshoots...
geeezz..... i need a freaking camera
and rahim is not replying me...
anyway...
i got the freaking irritating
rash again...
it's soooo annoying...
i think i'm allergic to something...
but i just dunno WHAT...
i've told my mum...
BUT...
as usual...
she DOESN'T CARE...
i guess i gotta go get it checked myself...
somehow get the
money to do the allergy test...
*shakes head*
the time is right;
{12:21 PM}
posted on Sunday, December 21, 2008
LOLS!!!! the picture that you see above
is brought to you by Edmond...
wahahahahaha....
WTH... u also torture elmo lor!!!
wahaahhaa....
went for NRA concert yesterday...
AND IT WAS FREAKING DOPE!!!!
OMGZZZ....
i needa train up mann.... been slacking like anything... =P
didn't get to take pictures... T_T
cause i sent the camera back for repair...
and like yeah... kinda sucks LAH...
BUT BUT BUT!!!
i did have a great time!!!
one of the dances were so touching...
i cried...!!!!
emotional roller coaster for me that concert...
the different kinds of love...
the one that touched me the most was
the love of a father...
i teared up during that number... omgzz...
slacked the entire day to day...
tried to have a movie marathorn...
BUT BUT BUT ...
i fell asleep during the first movie...
wahahahhaa....
SIAN...
dunno why so tired and lazy lately...
hmmms....
anyhoos...
CLASS POTLUCK TMR!!!!
AND I'M BRINGING MY GUITAR!!!
XDDDD
whahaha....
and i dunno what else to bring...
oohh!!!!
i think i buy marshmellows....
wahahahahaha.....
alright alright...
i'm going back to my food...
yi mee cooked by my grandma!!!
XDDDD
the time is right;
{11:03 PM}
posted on Friday, December 19, 2008
well i slacked at home today...
only because i had noooooo $$$$ whatsoever to go out...
hahaha... and yeah even my ez-link cards outta credit...
and then i got $50 from good ol' Grandma to go shopping!!!
whoooots!!!! my Christmas is saaaaaaaaved!!!!
i love you Grandma... not because you give me money...
but because you genuinely care for me and Ryan...
and everytime when Mum's away with Dad for holiday on their own,
you took extra special care to make sure that we don't go hungry...
even when we're all grown up now, you still take care of us...
thank you for everything and i'm sorry if i made things difficult...
i don't know what i'd do without you.... :))))))
okay on to my day...
watched youtube guitar tutorials...
and i learnt how to play 2 songs today!!!
YAY!!!!! *clap clap clap*
i learnt how to play My Happy Ending and Nobody's Home...
Avril Lavigne's songs seem to be the easier to play than anything else...
hahahahaha....
and yeah i practised still the fingers on my left hand and my right arm hurt...
it's actually a great way to vent your anger and frusrations...!
another way of destressing! ;)
i wanna try and learn other songs...
like boulevard of broken dreams by green day
and zombie by the cranberries...
i'm still a beginner... but i'm getting the hang of strumming... ;)
and yes i took guitar lessons before but that was classical guitar...
and i only learnt plucking.... yups....
yeah i haven't stayed home like this in a while...
it's good to just chill in your room...
no one but you and the guitar...
i wanna get an acoustic guitar...
currently i'm using my brother's cause
he doesn't play anymore... (as usual, too lazy!)
i wanna get the one at the guitar shop at compass!!!
i saw and awesome red one, blue, and other colours....
but i dunno...
maybe i should just go to cash converters and get a 2nd hand one...
THAT way i save money!!! XDDD yeah!!!
oh and i needa get picks too... and a capo...
i hope i have enough to last me till school reopens...
i'm tooo waaaaaaay hard up on cash..... *shakes head*
CONTROL SHINA!!!! CONTROOOOOOOOOLLLL!!!!!!
GAMBANTE!!!!!
the time is right;
{11:50 PM}
posted on Thursday, December 18, 2008
here are the edited photos from my last min photoshoot... :))))))
thanks for helping me out!!!!
actually, i edited more of them but the rest looked like crap when i uploaded them... NOT good... you can check it out in my facebook... or maybe i'll upload to friendster too...
anyway, i spend almost the entire day alone...
outside... walking... alone... window shopping alone...
met up with sec school friend angela for lunch...
i only had mango ice kachang cause i alr at ate home...
cause i didnt know my grandma was cooking when i made the appointment with her... =.=
anyway, she had to go back to work after lunch and that's when my solo journey of the day started...
here's my route:
1) home to Plaza Sing
2) Plaza Sing to Cineleisure
3) Cineleisure to orchard road, Takashimaya, Kinokunya
4) Spent 1 hr ++ at kino
5) Orchard back to Dhoby Ghaut
6) Dhoby Ghaut to Harbourfront, VivoCity
7) Slacked BIG time at Vivo, ate cup noodles for dinner + 1 can mountain dew cause i'm too poor to afford anything else...
8) VivoCity to Sengkang, HOME SWEET HOME
yupp... that's pretty much the whole day on my own...
i thought i'd get to see you there...
but sadly i didn't...
i was hoping to have some company...
but sadly i didn't...
bumped into some friends but they were
out with other friends...
i was hoping to get at least 1 message from my other friends...
but sadly none came...
only the replies from the messages i sent out to people...
at the end of it all...
i wanted to cry...
i teared up...
i didn't break down this time...
i felt as if i was the saddest, most lonely person in the world today...
what made me feel that way?
maybe it's because i only have a dollar left in my wallet...
maybe it's because i was so hungry...
maybe it's because i ate alone...
maybe it's because i didn't get replies from some of the messages i sent out...
WAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
fuck it.
all of it.
i shall stop complaining how miserable i feel and start thinking about other people.
i am not okay.
PS: thanks for trying to make me feel better guys. it means the world the me. :D
the time is right;
{11:14 PM}
posted on Wednesday, December 17, 2008
well i'm back from beijing!!!
and it was a blast!!!
whoo hooo!!!!
i got to see snoooooooooooooow!!!
hahahaa...
to cut the long story short,
although i was emo for most of the trip
because i miss my friends
back home, i still had a good time!
XDDDD
anyway it's back to business and assignments...
i gotta get 2 best shots for my assignment by tmr
so that i can go print the photos to hand in...
get at least one assignment cleared first,
the easiest one then on to tackling
the comic final...
OMG... no time! no time!
still got stupid flash trailer...
awww fcuk it....
it breaks my heart to know
that you were sad...
it breaks my heart to know
that i can't be there for you...
but when it's not alright,
when it's not okay,
i will try to make you feel better...
i will say alright,
i will say okay,
i will stick with you through whatever...
:)
the time is right;
{3:05 AM}
posted on Sunday, December 7, 2008
so here i am blogging inside the waiting area in changi airport...
yes all my darlings, i'm going away to beijing for 8 days!!!
ahahaha... gonna get some reali good photography shots over there...
i'm gonna miss everyone while i'm away...
but i'm gonna be back very soon and plan my next photoshoot!!! XDDD
to Edmond:
HEY!!! Water barrels rock!!! (sui tong) hahahaha...
let's go and drink every type of drink in Singapore!!!
hahahaha... so random... XDDD
and how dare you torture my tweety?!!
it's TWEEEEETY.... not tweeeny... hahahahaha....
next photoshoot we go to the beach!!! XDDD
to Siu Yun my darling:
Siu Yun dear... thanks for coming aaalll the way down from
Boon Lay to send me off!!!
that's sooo sweeeet of ya...!!!
and to help me record oschool recital also!!!
aaaahhh!!!! i lub you dip dip my dear!!!!
and i miss you already!!!
to Nasha:
Nasha dear... thanks for lunch today!!!
i didn't know the sculpture park could be so fun
if you had a camera! wahahahah...
let's take ANANAB shots when i come back!!! XDDD
i'm gonna miss you so much!!!
to the rest of my 01 darlings...
i'm gonna miss you too!!!
okok i gotta go now..
only got limited use on this comp...
bye bye!!!
muacks!!!
ooohhh and SDZ-ians too!!!!
the time is right;
{11:03 PM}
posted on Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Shina is officially........
wait for it.....
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STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i've never felt so uptight and stressed like this in my life...
not even O levels, not even getting results...
this feeling is NOTHING compared to the ones
i felt in the beginning of the school year...
i seriously need to get my act together and fast...
right now i'm feeling: VEXED, STRESSED, MOODLESS, UPTIGHT, FRUSTRATED, IRRITATED
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and also i think that i'm really beginning to lose my mind....
the time is right;
{10:36 AM}
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