i have have have have have to get this outta my system... if not i'll just explode!


let the tears flow, let the wound bleed
you were there when no one else was around
you saw me at my weakest, you saw me at my worst
but most of all, you saw me for who i am
you saw me when i was hurting

you showed the care, you showed the concern
it was something i rarely experienced
i was the one to comfort, i was the one to encourage
but you were the one to make me feel better
you were the one to make me smile altogether

nevermind that we met not long ago
nevermind what other people might say
nevermind that i used to like someone else
because now i've got you

i hope you feel the same way
i hope you won't shun me away
i hope that one day, we'll be together
it need not be forever
it need not be a year
i just need one day with you
Or even a moment will do

i hope you won't laugh at this
cause it's from the bottom of my heart
it's the best that i've written yet
and it's all because of you

i can't help it... i just have to post this...

today was the submission day for VDS assignment 2... we were given such a short time to do all of the planning and the composition and stuff... ONE WEEK!

i feel asleep the night before instead of staying up all night to do my assignment as planned... when i woke up, i was like panicking like hell... took a quick shower, rushed to school, skipped OC again for VDS, do do do do do the stupid photoshop thingy... i was practically clicking the mouse at the speed of light... seniors were asking me questions about what i was doing, left right and center... haha... then answered blah blah blah...

parasite was there, asked me about which class, where and what time again... for the millionth time... then click click click... my lappy went totally BLANK but the music was still playing... but i could see a thing! then i had to restart the damn thing, and do my layout ALL OVER AGAIN!

after that, i finished it at 2.50pm... wanted to print the damn thing... but couldn't cause the b**** at fc3 was taking so f**king long to print 3 pages... like wtf lah... i got fed up, ran to popular to buy the freaking mounting board and then went back to the room to try and print again... miss shirlynn was so nice, she asked a senior to help me with the printing and stuff... the senior also so nice... he asked everyone how to print A3 size for me... *feels so touched* haha... tried to print it like 7 times, cause everyone in the room was also printing... then finally it came out alright... then cut cut cut... spray spray spray... mount and paste name... hand in... sign in... shifted my stuff from the second room to the first... left everything there, and then took my wallet and phone, went downstairs walked to 7-11 and bought two drinks and some snacks... walked all the way back... then i realised that i haven't drank the milo that siuyun helped me buy 2 hours before... then took the milo... saw siuyun and fara in the room... said hi and all.... opened the can, then one of the seniors was like,"don't drink that here. you want to drink, go out and drink". i was kinda shocked, but then i was like,"okay..."

went outside... started to drink... then for i don't know what reason, i started to tear up inside and out... went to the staircase and sat down... i teared and teared and teared... i was listening to my ipod shuffle mini... blasting it loud... just wanted to block out all the noise that is around me... i know someone saw me but i dunno who... then seniors walked past me... on the way down to i dunno where... then out of no where, siuyun and fara came and sat down with me... then i saw nathan from 02 lookin at me from the landing opposite me... i just couldn't face him cause i always appeared to be so strong and all... i just don't like people, no matter who it is, that i cry quite easily if i hear something that hits a nerve.

siuyun and fara kinda calmed me down a little bit... michelle was at the bottom of that staircase landing and did her saturday night fever thing and her twist... made me laugh... then i just felt like crying somemore... until lim kar told us that it was time to go back into the room... i tried to dry my tears but it was so obvious that i had been brawling my eyes out for the past 10 mins... or was it only 5? i didn't keep track but it was not that long... after that, i wasn't in the mood to listen to anything the lecturers had to say about the composition of our artworks and stuff... i was only half listening to what miss shirlynn was saying about other people's work... wenbin was so nice to let me have the chair to sit on cause i had been standing for the past 20 mins half listening to miss shirlynn commenting on everyone else's work... =D

the three people today who noticed me and comforted me, thank you. honestly, i've never been comforted by more than 1 person at anytime when i cry... it's been awhile since i've felt like this... i don't know why... oh gosh i'm tearing up again... it's kind of hard to explain this feeling... it is either me being ridiculous or the fact that i'm so stressed that i don't even know what i am stressed about... or the fact that i just have this feeling that my stomach caved in and disappeared into a blackhole...

and to chessa, girl thanks for showing me the way to the toilet... ahaha... i had a bad day today... thanks for being there to make it all better! =D

to the three people, you know who you are... ;) i think you ought to know that what you did for me today, just being in my life, makes all the difference in the world to me... it has just been a really long time that someone else besides my family showed genuine concern towards me... it's just that it came as a big shock to me that you saw that i was upset about something... most of the time people would just walk off...

oh and to that mistery person who saw me crying first, thank you. i couldn't see your face cause my eyes were filled with tears... haha... but thanks for noticing, really. =)

so that concludes today's events... i shan't post about what happened during the past few weeks cause it is very tedious.... haha... and i don't really remember what happened as well... ahha... oh well... and this is only what happened in school... after that it is a long story... i'm too lazy to continue... ;P

well... haven't been posting since like... what a week? a lot can happen in a week! haha... finally the VDS project is done!!! super happy like WTF lah!! now it's DT1, IDS project builder on dreamweaver... and the A3 sized poster for HCD... doing all of that tmr... wth lah... damn tired... sheesh... anyway i loved what i did for my VDS project... but my presentation was kinda HORRIBLE but my report was okay lah... i basically dumped all of my original sketches and ideas in the file... plus i printed out every single picture i ever took of all of my art pieces... the progress and stuff... omg it was like damn rushing lah yesterday... somemore i stayed back for HIVE committee meeting with my seniors Jervic, Angela, Bella and a few more i can't think of right now... haha... i handed in my project late, but at least i FINISHED it... lols...

so anyway, went to watch a movie with Ee Hwan and Cerlyn today... we watch What Happens in Vegas... lols... it was damn funny sial... laugh until so hard!! and Monday's a holiday!! and guess what? i'm planning to finish ALL of my assignments by Monday! so yeah... it's gonna be a long but busy holiday... haha... and i DO plan to sleep more than 8 hours a day... so... yeah... WORK first THEN play Shina... you had better learn how to manage your time more EFFICIENTLY... and do things more QUICKLY... haha... that is my inner 'critic' talking... but it's good! haha... so here are the photos of my final art pieces... i hope the lecturers see the effort i put in...


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oh man... my head hurts like crap... and i fell asleep on the bus, the conductor had to wake me up when it reached the interchange... lols!!! that never happened before... i'm feeling so drained and it's THE time of the month again... having cramps and project due next week like WTF??????????

a lot has happened in the past week... i'm too lazy to post anything else except this now...

I OFFICIALLY HATE MY ANGEL!!! I MEAN LIKE, WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU??

so that's it... yeah... anyway Ashlyn's gonna kill you FOR me so... yeah... my hands are clean... :D lolss.... random much?! anyway i showered my mortal with lots of love and encouragement and gifts... it would be nice to have SOMETHING in return no? anyway i'm gonna do my illustrator thingy... or charcoal drawing...? whatever i'm gonna do at least one of them and then i'm gonna sleep... zzZZZzzzZZZzz...