yes, i've decided to blog again for the second time today. just let everything out like the brain numb thing one of my lecturers told us to do on a monday morning...
i am now in amk MAC next to the HUB... just sitting... sipping on my ice milo... chilling out until i have to leave to give tuition... haiz... damn sian... *sigh*
anyway, i just gritted my teeth and did my report for HCD just now in school... we ended up going to the 5th floor of the library to do our assignment... yeah... was kind of a productive day as i actually got part of my work done... whaha... then went to eat mac's for lunch... now i'm still super full... wahaha... the grilled chicken foldover at school taste nicer than the one they serve outside... lolss... and i paid $5.85 for the meal plus upsize and changed the drink to milo... haha... cheap eh? yeah... so if you wanna eat mac's, go to Singapore Poly cause you'll save a hell lot of money...
anyway i was just wondering to myself... why am i giving tuition again? maybe it's for some extra cash for me to go shopping... maybe it's for me to like... i dunno... buy supplies for this oh so expensive course that i'm in... so that i won't burden my mum any longer cause she's already spent so much on me since i was little... paying for ballet and music lessons... then it was my dancing... now it's my future... how long more will i be a burden to this wonderful woman who has already given me so much and ask nothing but love in return?
deep thoughts but not enough words to express them... i wonder if anyone ever reads the posts the contain my deepest thoughts and most sincere words... haha... cause honestly, i wasn't popular at all back in my secondary school... just among my guides i was the funny, sweet, kind senior who took mercy on them when they were so exhausted and still had to do footdrill... wahaha... but i didn't let them climb all over me. nope. and that is one thing that has earned me their respect. haiz... those were the days... and when i went for the campfire, my successors told me how spoiled the recruits are... pampered and all... geez... i hope we can knock some sense of responsibility into them...
right now, i'm just stoning... letting my mind wander around... i think it's in prague now cause chun yong was just talking about his trip there earlier today... wahaha.... feeling dreamy.... but still oh so tired... i wanna talk to N... i wanna lean on him again... i wanna stone in the couch with him again... haiz... but somethings are just better left unsaid...
Loving Me 4 Me
People ask me if I'm in love with you
Cause I'm sitting here with your picture
And smiling to myself
I'm kinda lost in my own thoughts of you
My heart speaks before my mind thinks through
And I blush as I say "yes"
What a feeling of vulnerability coming over me
And I'm feeling weak and I can't speak
Never thought I'd give in so willingly to a human being
With abilities to set me free
Free, make me be me
Makes me want to say
Your lips, your love, your smile, your kiss
I must admit it's a part of me
You please me, complete me, believe me
Like a melody
Your soul, your flow, your youth, your truth is simply proof
We were meant to be
But the best quality thats hookin' me
Is that you're loving me for me
Is that you're loving me for me
People ask why I'm in love with you
Well, let me start by saying
You got my heart by just being who you are
And what we got is between me and you
It doesn't matter about the money I make
Or what I do, or that I'm a, huh, a star
Unconditionally you're there for me
Undeniably you inspire me, spiritually, so sweet
This is meaningful, is incredible, pleasurable, unforgettable
The way I feel, so sweet
Makes me want to say
Your lips, your love, your smile, your kiss
I must admit it's a part of me
You please me, complete me, believe me
Like a melody
Your soul, your flow, your youth, your truth is simply proof
We were meant to be
But the best quality thats hookin' me
Is that you're loving me for me
Is that you're loving me for me
Its so amazing how something so sweet
Has come and rearranged my life
I've been kissed by destiny
Oh, heaven came and saved me
An angel was placed at my feet
This isn't ordinary, he's loving me for me
Stripped of all make up, no need for fancy clothes
No cover ups, push ups
With him, I dont have to put on a show
He loves every freckle, every curve, every inch of my skin
Fulfilling me entirely, taking all of me in
He's real,he's honest, he's loving me for me
Yeah
