Parents. Will they ever learn how to relate to their child?
Or, will they ever try to understand what their children are going through?

sometimes i feel that some parents in general,
do not make effort to find out why their children do what they do,
like why do they blast their music so loudly?
why are they looking so glum sometimes for a whole week?
why don't they eat their meals on time?
why do they look so tired?

sometimes, she just doesn't understand
sometimes, she just doesn't give a shit about me
and she claims to be the one to give me life
is it living when you're feeling so empty?
is it living when you're feeling so worthless?
why doesn't she have pride in me
it is like she's ashamed of me and of who i am

sometimes i feel like quitting
i feel like giving up
i feel like jumping off the cliff i see
so often in my dreams
every night i'm at the cliff
every night the same one
and every night i wonder why i am there
why do i dream of this?
is there a message, hidden from the naked eye?

Joseph the king of dreams,
interpret these dreams, nightmares, whatever they are
tell me what they mean, so that i can prepare for the worst

i cried and i cried and i cried
the pain i felt... the shame i felt...
the ligament is not getting any better
thankfully the hand is...
i couldn't sleep well...
i locked to door so that no one could see,
that i was crying my heart out for the first time in a long while...

i woke up moody and unhappy...
i wasn't feeling good about myself at all...
it just sucks when this kind of shit happens...
i don't know if i should tell anyone...
but the fact that i am posting this up,
is just a way for me to vent

maybe i'm feeling better now
i've got my classmates who became
the best friends a girl could ever have
yeah man...