i think i failed my dance exam....!!! :'( :'(
so sad but true... i think i did fail...
because the seniors said that only
3 people passed out of like the 40 people or so?
haiz.... damn sian lahhh.....!!!!

right now, i'm in HIVE....
staying back to do a little bit of work
before going home because i feel like it...
haha...
but no so not funny...
i was pretty bummed out yesterday...
BUT BUT BUT
the seniors said that it was a mock exam
because our instructor Daniel wasn't there...
and then we were like wtfff???
so nervous for nothing...!!!

but still, i think that i failed...
kept thinking about where i went wrong...
and whether i put in enough effort
to practice and to keep improving myself...
pushing my limits till they can't go any further...
but there is always this thing called time constraints...
i know that everyone's got homework
and all the shit that they need to do...
but i think that my course has
A LOT more than some other courses...
it's just that we're doing our best
to make the most of our time...
yupp...

haii...
i think that i'm already giving up on
everything that i ever liked to do...
such as dancing...?
be it latin or hip hop, i just don't know why
i feel like giving up even if i did fail the mock exam...

am i a quitter?
am i too afraid to face the fact
that i am not as good as i think i am?
am i emotionally attached
to every single thing that i do?
is it because that i put all my heart
and soul into doing things,
that i feel so disappointed when
things do not turn out to be
what i thought they would be?

so many questions, all difficult to answer...
and to answer them truthfully is even harder...
haiii....
this stinks...!!
but i'll be fine after awhile...
practicing dance again tomorrow...
let's see what happens....!