Name: Shina Age: 18 Birthday: 18Jan91 School: SP, DCMD 2A 01, SDZ
Loves dancing, designing,>
singing, day dreaming,
strumming.
What I Want: JJ Lin World Tour 2009 Concert JJ Lin's 6th album
learn Beat Boxing New Shoes
switch jobs Pink skull and crossbones hoody
iPod Classic Avril Lavigne's concert more shirts! studded belt
Time
some kind of understanding
be myself
some kind care and concern
be happy
went to watch Hanayori Dango final today... it was super nice!!! XDDD so romantic... so sweet... omgomgomgomgomg... i'm melting everytime i think about it now... haa... went to watch it with siu yun at orchard cineleisure... yupps.... and guess what? we bought the couple seat!!! XDDDD wahahahahahaha...!!!!!! i had fun man... i ate subway and dougnuts today!! haa... yeah actually that's all i ate and i'm still not feeling the least hungry!!! is that a good thing? haha....
i am a hopeless romantic... yes i am.... if i ever get a bf i'll make him the happiest guy on earth... XD but whatever right? so sad no one wants me... sniff sniff.... but why do i care...? i got siu yun!!! whahahaha...!!! but nononononononono..... i am not lesbian... i'm straight okay... straight as a ruler.... haa... makes not sense... my mind's gone case alr i think... wahaha.... madness personified.... lolss
the time is right; {12:14 AM}
posted on Monday, September 29, 2008
i'm feeling loads better now... Siu Yun dear, i'm sorry to make you so worried about me... i'm fine now... and it's because of your concern for me... :)))
Ariel dear, thanks for your tag as well... i can't ask for better friends and companions... :)))
i went to watch Wall.E with my brother today... cause my mum gave us money to watch a movie instead of letting us rot at home... waahahahahaa.... it was so cute and so funny... XDDD
after which we went over to our uncle's place for dinner... and dinner was YUMMMMMMMMYYYYY!!!! XDDDDDD we had a small thin crust pizza which he bought from DOME, aaaaaaaannndd... PASTA!!!! the good old traditional pasta with the tomato based pasta sauce and minced meat!!! wahahaa... we ate until we were sooo stuffed!!! XDDD OH HAPPY DAY!!!
and we played with our cousins again... hahaa... sooo cuuute!! still can get over how cute rachel is!!!! wahahaha...
the time is right; {12:33 AM}
posted on Friday, September 26, 2008
i don't know why... but i just feel like posting again... yeah... i know... i'm super weird and abnormal... super weird and abnormal Shina...
Shina sucks at everything... Shina is not happy with herself... Shina is feeling super lousy... Shina is the worst person ever... Shina is the dancer with the worst attitude... Shina doesn't know how to cherish... Shina doesn't know how to seize the moment by the throat... and Shina can't feel anything but hate and rage right now...
Shina feels hate for herself... Shina feels hate for whatever she has done... Shina is depressed... Shina is not in the mood for jokes... Shina is really really frustrated... Shina does not have time for games anymore... Shina is angry at herself... Shina is angry at herself for being this way... Shina hates the way she is... Shina doesn't know how to change... Shina can't seem to get the message... Shina is too proud... Shina is the suckiest person alive... Shina is never gonna feel good enough for anyone...
And Shina is dying on the inside... Day by day she dies... Day by day she disappears into the background of reality... and soon she will be non-existant...
the time is right; {11:27 PM}
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who knew you could lose all of your confidence in one day? well i think i sure did... hai... kinda sucks when you have to choose between two things that are equally important to you... and when you've made that decision, you don't know if you will regret it...
but the thing is, i'm not regretting anything... because i got to spend time with my brother on his 14th birthday!!! XD we had sushi and swensens chocolate fondue and his free birthday firehouse...!!! XP
and tomorrow is dance session again to practise everything that i have learnt... and hopefully i will improve... maybe i won't no matter how much and how long i practise because i find myself too darn narrow minded to accept the fact that i'm not perfect in doing the choreographies and techniques... and i gave up auditioning for Flava today....
what's my reason? because the seniors decided that flava is the last genre to audition for, and also to have it after 8pm... so i gave up waiting for over 2 hours and went to celebrate my brother's birthday instead... i actually gave up Flava to eat Sushi and ice cream... gosh... i must be a terrible person...! DDDDDDDDDDDD::
here are some pics i took of our dessert at Swensens!
what happened to me today? i do not know... i think i'm the worst dancer there is... maybe i'm not even a dancer at all... i'm just a person who dreams of becoming one... i can't dance.... i can do choreo... BUT i can't do freestyle cause i SUCK at freestyle... yes... Shina SUCKS at freestyle... 100%
and Shina was 100% emo while waiting for Flava auditions to start, only to find out that it starts after 8pm and she has to choose between celebrating her brother's birthday and auditioning for one of her favourite genres... i felt so lousy on the way back to sengkang... i don't know how my SDZ will look at me tomorrow when i go for session, and i don't know what to tell them... maybe i won't have to tell them anything because they don't really care if you had to make a decision like i did... maybe they only care about us training hard to make WAVES 13 a dope one... and they care about us making progress... THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PIPIPAPIPUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!! X 10000000000000000000000000000000 times >:(
i'm going to emo somemore... i'll be okay... like i always am... like i always seem to be...
the time is right; {10:57 PM}
posted on Wednesday, September 24, 2008
i've been changing the songs on my blog like a million times already... but i can't help it... my mood changes everyday... so today i felt like listening to Michael Jackson!!! THE EVERY REIGNING KING OF POP!!! XDDD
hahahaha.... but reali, you guys should watch his music videos.... it's like mind blowing... even now... haha... he's soo cool.... he can do locking and popping!!! WTH i never knew... i thought his moves were just like.... invented by him or something like that.... but now i know!!! haha... posted some of his awesome videos on the SDZ forum to share share share share... ;)))
anyway i think i'm going to bed now... waaahh... sleepy!!! XD night night...
the time is right; {1:45 AM}
posted on Tuesday, September 23, 2008
i am so tired... yes i am... but i need to go on... i can't give up when i've come this far...
i don't feel like helping out in the cleaning up... i reali don't... because i'm so freaking tired... and because i got dance training after...
hmm... meeting siu yun earlier today to give her tutorial on one week worth of dance sessions and techniques... yupps... she nearly died yesterday from the flava and street jazz routine... poor thing... and she hasn't been sleeping well too... poor girl had 2 camps had 2 camps in a row... and usually in camps you don't sleep... go figure...
anyway i'm gonna go get ready to meet up with her for lesson number 2... locking and hip hop groove (which i detest)... yupp... haiyo!!! i simply hate hip hop groove... DON'T ASK WHY...
the time is right; {9:37 AM}
posted on Monday, September 22, 2008
it's 4.35am and i cannot seem to get to sleep... no i am not thinking about anything... no i am not thinking about anyone... and no, i did not take caffine before going to bed...
i'm chatting with xue yi online.... just random chatting... asking how life's been etc... omg.... i think i need to change my bed and my pillows... YUCK! the things that live in your pillow and your bed... eeewww.... (shudders)
anyway... i'm gonna go try and watch... maybe naruto... and maybe i'll fall asleep somehow... also... maybe it is because of my lazy sunday... hahahahahaha.... did do anything at all but watch tv and eat... wahahahaha....
the time is right; {4:34 AM}
posted on Sunday, September 21, 2008
i'm just tooooo lazy today... i don't feel like doing anything... i even blogged half-way and went to sleep last night... haha... i couldn't even wake up... i DIDN'T even want to wake up...
i'm sooo tired... i went for last minute locking session with Sha Sha and a couple of other guys... it was fun..!!! two of them were like... haha... damn funny man... lolss.... here's the video!
Damn funny right? wth lah! i think i'm gonna like... go brush my teeth and eat... cause i'm hungry!!! XPP
the time is right; {2:18 PM}
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i think i'm in love again... no not in love... i think i've been infatuated again... for the thousandth time.... WHYYY do these things keep happening? no fair... urgh!!!
and no... it's not the guy in the picture... (points up) it is someone else that i got to know recently...
omg im too tired!!! i'll blog again when i wake up...
the time is right; {1:16 AM}
posted on Saturday, September 20, 2008
This is what i miss the most:
This is what i tresure the most:
This is what i want the most...
what i miss the most is the friend that i can definitely count on... and she's in the first picture! oh man she's gonna kill me for putting that up... oh well... haha.... i think she loves me too much to want to kill me... XDD
anyway, went for session again today... it was: 1) A lot of fun 2) A lot of sweat 3) A lot of headaches (for me) 4) A lot of bonding with my fellow dancers! XDD i bonded with the girls from SDZ today... i mean like reali create that friendship and team bond.... it came so naturally that i didnt even notice that it was happening until the very end of the session!
things are finally looking up :D i realise that if i practise harder and longer, i will be able to get any choreography that is being thrown at me... and that anything is possible with a little more faith and courage...
we are all practising hard for the upcoming Waves concert... i just love the feeling of being in a team and that i can ask anyone for help... i think that i am just very lucky to have another extended family that i can depend on... not just for support, but also encouragement, strength, reassurance and last but not least: LOVE
i know that the word has been used so many times, we frequently forget the true essence of it... but today, i truly felt that everyone cares about everyone even if we dont know each other that well... and that is what i love about SDZ now...
at first, everything was so awkward, weird, and everyone was just shy to talk to someone that they dont really know... right now, even if we are not as close, i feel that i can just talk to anyone at all and i can bet that they will talk back you know?
well, it's the warm fuzzy feeling you get when the Christmas season is around... but this warm and fuzzy feeling i get from SDZ is all year round...
whoa... i didnt know i could feel this way about SDZ...
what i tresure the most, is my family... because i feel that family always comes first... no matter how many differences you have, family is always there for you, most of the time it is never changing... and families always support each other...
and what i want the most? that picture says it all... i wonder if i will ever have that in this life time... but i'll keep hoping and i'll keep searching... until i find it...
i'm just doing a reflection in this post... it might bore you people but it is what i am thinking right now.... at 3.35am on a Saturday morning...
the time is right; {3:07 AM}
posted on Friday, September 19, 2008
the time is right; {1:58 AM}
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WHOOTS!!! I actually enjoyed session today!! i mean more than usual...!! haha...!!!
i was 100% high after eating my dinner which was just mr bean....? lolss... and i got a new dance battle partner!! XDD haha...
well i made a few more friends from dance... which is so freaking awesome... cause they're so freaking cool and awesome too...!!! okok still a bit high ah... XP
anyway, tried to take a video of Uncle and another senior doing a popping choreo... but my hands were shaking like mad!! DDD:
here it is!! you gotta tilt your head to the left to see it properly... haha...!!!
the time is right; {1:16 AM}
posted on Thursday, September 18, 2008
i'm lazy to update... but here are some pictures of my cousins when i went to stay over last sunday... XD soooo cute!!!!!
Darren
Darren
Baby Rachel! Aka Xuan Xuan!! XDD
Video!
ok shall update again later! haha... XP
the time is right; {1:06 PM}
posted on Saturday, September 13, 2008
dance training was... haii... i'm sick of blogging about dance training... let's move on to something else shall we? :D
okay... yesterday, dance training started super early.... it started at 3.30pm... i just had enough time to chow down my lunch before i started... well i was late for the warm up but that was it... i'm never gonna be late for another training session... well let's see how it goes shall we?
i'm sooo tired.... body's aching... well that's a good sign! because it means that i'm doing the moves right! well i'm learning a lot from the seniors now... and it's more than my brain can absorb... oh well... they say that the trick is to use muscle memory instead of your brain capacity to remember moves... can anyone confirm if that's true? haha...
woke up super early today... 7.10am to meet siu yun, tingfang and supposedly joshua to teach joshua and tingfang what we learnt this week and on the days that they didnt come for session... then after that we went to vivo to get siu yun's fairy wings... in the end, toys r us didnt have the wings alone... SO... yeah... she decided to dress as something else for her gyl camp's disco/campfire night... well guess what's the theme? its........ HALLOWEEN!!!!!
but like... who the hell reali dresses up on halloween??? unless you're in america then that's a different thing....
and siu yun camwhored at toys r us and mini toons... LOL!!!! take a look at the pictures!!! XDD
So this is her with her ELMO BOYFRIEND
with her PIKACHU BABAY
her SPONGEBOB BOYFRIEND
and YES she's dancing with the PINK bunny!
PRETTY FEROSH!
OH NO! IT GOT HER FACE!!
oops! and this is my 100th post! XD
the time is right; {7:06 PM}
posted on Friday, September 12, 2008
Just another dance session... muscles hurt... not like crazy but they hurt...
i'm worried... some of my friends aren't talking to me anymore... i didnt mean to be so in your face about it... but like... what's going on? are you that busy? reali? because i sent you a message but you didnt reply... i tried to talk to you on msn but you didnt reply at all... hmmmm... maybe it's just me thinking too much... this wouldnt be the first time it happened... and i'm always blaming myself... i don't know why... but yeah...
maybe there's an explaination for this... oh well i'll just stop bothering you for now... hmmmm... we're friends... right...? :/
oh man i'm hungry... didnt exactly eat dinner... it was just mr bean from the mrt station... i dont know how long i can stand, NOT eating proper food... maybe it's just... haiyo nvm...
watching Seed of Chucky... it's taking sooo long to load... that's the problem with watching movies from the net... oh well... i think i'll just buy the vcd when i turn 18 next year... (closes window)
"And I don't wanna fall to pieces, i just wanna sit and stare at you i don't wanna talk about it, and i don't want a conversation, i just wanna cry in front of you i don't wanna talk about it, cause i'm in love with you..."
this longing is killing me... i am so weak...
the time is right; {12:13 AM}
posted on Wednesday, September 10, 2008
YEAH! my body's aching like hell after intensive dance training...!!! and also because i went to Holland V after to have dinner with Siu Yun and Ting Fang!! XD then we walked around the area... was sooo freaking cool lah! all the pubs and stuff... lolss... and then went to coffee bean to slack... i bought a banana chocolate large!! XD sooo deeeeeeeelicious!!!! after that i was the happiest crazy idiot on the face of the earth...
why crazy idiot? because i was being one after being woken up by my mum at 7 am today cause she needed to use my scanner... -.-" i was sooo grumpy and cranky and sooo full of SHIT today.... soooo full of CRAP... making everyone around me crazy.... like siu yun... poor girl got super crazy at the end of our walk at Holland V... wahahaha.... crazy meee.... lol...
oh and yesterday during our session break, we were walking back and Cerlyn RAAAAN out from her squash court just to say hi to us!! XD awwwww... so sweet of her....!!! i reali missed seeing her!!! haha....
yeah total randomness today... crazy meee...!!! who can ever like someone like me...? so crazy random mood swing cranky grumpy...? haha... and YES i was all of these at ONCE today... only i can do it... lolss... not to forget EMO...
i'm so tired... eyes hurt... thanks for waking me up at 7am mum... urgh... after that i cannot go back to sleep... cause siu yun's meeting ended early then we wanted to meet up earlier for practise on locking etc... so like... after helping my mum i went and slacked for 2 hrs cause i couldnt sleep AT ALL after that... went online etc... then went to bathe etc... then ate lunch blah blah blah... then i was late again when meeting siu yun... omg girl i'm so sorry.... keep making you wait for me these days when we go out together... >.<"
anyway i think i'm gonna take a cold shower and HIT THE SACK!!!
the time is right; {11:56 PM}
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alright lemme update a little bit...
hmmms.... on monday, i went to school for a meeting... after which i went to meet Nikki at amk... it's been like FOREVER since we last saw each other... so we were like SUPER psyched when we actually saw each other face to face... lolss....
took a bus from amk to city hall, peninsular shopping centre... i bought a new hoody!! and a new t shirt for dance!! it's soo comfy and suuuper biig!! just nice to cover up to 3 inches above my knees!! whhaaa... XDDD
and guess what? i deposited $50 that day into my account... and i spent like $44.90 after that... wth lah... omgomgomgomgomgomg.... spending waaaaay too much!!! XPPP
so i decided to be a good girl for once and go home early... haha... just in time to go to starbucks to hand in my application form for a part time job.... i hope i get it man... seriously in need of money... i'll tell you why... READ ON (points downwards)
TODAY met up with siu yun at city hall before dance training at 5pm to show her the totally AWESOME shop i went with nikki the previous day to get that new HOODY and tee... so siu yun fell in love with the same type of hoody that i got and also she needed it for her batam camp cause she would be staying in a hotel... she gets cold easily... SO she bought it and was totally happy!!
after that we went and searched for the notorious sandals... why notorious? because you see them everywhere but dont know WHERE exactly to get them...? haha! we gave up searching at peninsular and went toooo..... NEW URBAN MALE - the gay shop yes it's a gay shop... i mean the clothes are AWESOME but they're sooo gay.... and i helped siu yun buy a pair of $50 AWESOME sandals they were totally cool and AWESOME and PINK!! XDDD
AND SO! Shina's bank account is currently half empty... haha.... well... there should be a minimum of $500 in it but i think there's only like... $300? maybe less? cause i spent $10++ on my so-called dinner... i bought food from 7-eleven because the freakin FC3 wasn't opened... T_T i had to swipe my card AGAIN... and yeah.... my pocket's got such a biig hole that my stuffed tweety bird could fit through...!!! mind you that stuffed tweety is HUUUUUGE... dance training ended at 9.30... so sad... we were just learning grooovy stuff... the stuff that i like and the stuff that i'm good at... shaking my hips and popping my boootay!
awww well.... haii... training with Daniel tmr...!!! cant wait to get tortured... i'd better cough out the last of my phelgmn... if not i'll be suffocating....
and we saw the totally CUUUUUUUTE kitty cat on the way to the MRT!!! it kept moving around and sayang-ing our legs... awwww!!! soo manja lor... hahaha... when it finally stopped moving, i took this picture! haha.... (points below)
it's like... soo clean! haha... i knew that cats were clean and particular about their hygiene... but this one was like... it's been groomed or something... soo cute!! i hope i see it again tomorrow! XDDD
okok i'm gonna try and snooze now... gonna start IDS and DS research tmr...!!! get those annoying assignments outta the way so that i can FULLY concentrate on other stuff like:
1. Dance Training 2. My weekend job at starbucks (hopefully i beat out other applicants! XDD) 3. Helping my grandma out (i'll explain that another time) 4. Cleaning my room (it's been EONS since i've done that!!)
alright alright alright! gonna snooze... bye bye!
the time is right; {2:03 AM}
posted on Monday, September 8, 2008
oh my it's been ages since i updated... hahaha... oh whatever...
well i got the HCD/VDS over and done with... i think that the content is totaly crap... the hard cover that i did was pretty cool though... hmmm... purple velvet... XD wahhahaah...
then went for like... training last week on wed... i didnt go for session on tues... cause i was rushing my contents... daniel didnt come last week... :( oh well... hanafee taught us some stuff... la da la da la... after training went to rush assignment for the 100th time...
and well my plan to do something nice just completely blew up in my face... AGAIN! i give up... i give up... i'm sick of this... why am i try so hard...? no one appreciates anything i do... it's completely depressing...
PICS FROM AVRIL'S CONCERT!!!!
I was SUUUUUUUUUUPER high after the concert cause it was COMPLETELY AWESOME!!! XD