who knew you could lose all of your confidence in one day?
well i think i sure did... hai...
kinda sucks when you have to choose between
two things that are equally important to you...
and when you've made that decision,
you don't know if you will regret it...
but the thing is, i'm not regretting anything...
because i got to spend time
with my brother on his 14th birthday!!! XD
we had sushi and swensens chocolate fondue
and his free birthday firehouse...!!! XP
and tomorrow is dance session again to practise
everything that i have learnt...
and hopefully i will improve...
maybe i won't no matter how much and how
long i practise because i find myself
too darn narrow minded to accept
the fact that i'm not perfect in doing
the choreographies and techniques...
and i gave up auditioning for
Flava today....
what's my reason?
because the seniors decided that
flava is the last genre to audition for,
and also to have it after
8pm...
so i gave up waiting for over 2 hours
and went to celebrate my brother's birthday
instead...
i actually gave up Flava to eat Sushi and ice cream...
gosh... i must be a terrible person...!
DDDDDDDDDDDD::
here are some pics i took
of our dessert at Swensens!
what happened to me today?
i do not know...
i think i'm the worst dancer
there is...
maybe i'm not even a dancer at all...
i'm just a person who dreams of becoming one...
i can't dance....
i can do choreo... BUT
i can't do freestyle cause i SUCK at freestyle...
yes... Shina SUCKS at freestyle... 100%
and Shina was 100% emo while waiting
for Flava auditions to start,
only to find out that it starts
after 8pm and she has to choose
between celebrating her brother's
birthday and auditioning for one of
her favourite genres...
i felt so lousy on the way
back to sengkang...
i don't know how my SDZ will
look at me tomorrow when i go for
session, and i don't know
what to tell them...
maybe i won't have to tell them
anything because they don't really
care if you had to make a decision
like i did...
maybe they only care about us
training hard to make WAVES 13 a dope one...
and they care about us
making progress...
THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PIPIPAPIPUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!
X 10000000000000000000000000000000 times
>:(
i'm going to emo somemore...
i'll be okay...
like i always am...
like i always seem to be...
