i'm like damn sad mann...
i can't seem to sleep any longer than 5 hours....
T_T i'm so tired...!!!!

anyway gonna help minhua with a photoshoot later...
gonna help him do Nasha's makeup...
should be fun!!!

Christmas is coming....
Christmas eve tomorrow...
not sure how it will go...
because we're all grown up...
doesn't seem to be as fun
as it was before when we're
all running around and
playing with the toys we
got in our presents...

There's no more fun in just
tearing off the wrapper anymore...
maybe i've grown up and need
to spend Christmas elsewhere...
but Christmas is all about family...
and i'm stuck with my family every
Christmas even if i do see them
constantly throughout the year...

oh well... i can't do anything now...
Can i?
i'm in absolutely NO position
to make any of the decisions...
i never was and i never will be...
that is also one thing that
contributes to this SIAN-SATION...

Christmas was not supposed to feel
like that...
maybe spending the first
half of Christmas eve with
SDZ should get me in the mood...
hmmmmmmmm............................

oh yeah i changed my blog layout...
the previous one was getting
too old and like...
childish for me i guess....?

actually i don't feel all
that psyched about Christmas this year...
maybe it's because i got assigments...
maybe it's because of everything
that's going on clumped together
to give me this feeling....
or maybe it's because i didn't
spend Christmas with my parents
for two years in a row
that made me like this....
yeah it sounds so ridiculous
but yeah.... i can't exactly explain it...

i needa cheer up... and fast!!!!
but i just can't seem to do so on my own... T^T