i had an aweful week...
thank goodness it's Friday tomorrow...
things to complete by tmr: DT and possibly, my photojournal
i have to say that i haven't been planning
my time properly.
things are gonna clash with each other
and i have no idea how i'm going to deal with it.
i didn't do my comic last night due to physical exhaustion from training...
dancing keeps me happy and sometimes i'll
happily spend time dancing rather than doing my work...
but studies do come first no matter how
bitchy they seem to be and how much the course costs...
i could tell that my mum's fed up with
me always asking for money to buy
materials for my assignment...
i just told her that i spent about $30 for
my photojournal photos and
that she hadn't paid me back yet for the repair of my phone...
sometimes i really do wonder if i have
her 100% support doing what i want and what i love...
i wonder so often that i become
insecure and sometimes i'll even cry over it...
thinking, maybe i don't have her full support
and maybe she didn't even want me to take this course...
i wonder if she will go back on her words and
just... NOT give me that support that i need.
it's not that i don't want to find job.
i DO want to find a job.
sadly, i am not able to manage my time well enough
to be able to balance school and work and dance all at once...
i want to get a weekend job.
it's just hard to get a part time job anywhere these days...
if i do get a part time job, i may not be able to cope...
as in, i may physically wear myself out and be
tired all the time...
but why am i ranting about all of this?
there's no point because it doesn't help the situation...
i should cut down on spending.
like, don't eat so much.
but do i spend that much on food anymore?
doesn't feel like it.
just SUCKS man...
i should learn to stop complaining
and deal with it....
