我觉得自己的性格很差，
没想到我这总人还能有纯在。
i really really can't take this anymore...
i'm feeling so crapped and f-ed up
the i don't see the bright side of things anymore...
i am mentally and emotionally unstable right now
and that it's not funny at all...
it was never meant to be funny in the first place...
i'm just lying to myself...
telling myself that i can get over it real quick...
i'm feel like the most useless person in the world right now...
i can't get over it,
i can't get over myself,
i can't get over these feelings,
i can't focus on my work,
i can't do anything...
i'm feeling so helpless and desperate for
another kind of understanding...
i don't need someone to tell me that i'm
stupid to hold on to things like these...
i don't need someone to tell me that crying over something like this is no use...
i don't need anyone to tell me that i'm being stupid...
i don't need anymore shit right now...
i'm fucked up as it is...
i'm gonna be like this for a long time...
please bear with me or leave me alone for all i care...
i was always alone in secondary school and i can be alone again...
i had friends who didn't understand or were to busy
with superficial things to notice what they were becoming...
too busy to notice that i wasn't around anymore...
i guess i'm not as important as they say...
i was never important to anyone and i'll never be...
i want to be there for people who need me...
so that i could feel wanted and important...
i felt that i belonged for a while...
it was all an illusion that i made it look like what i wanted it to be
but now i know that i was wrong to assume that i was ever wanted or needed...
i wrote this feeling so f-ed up.
i wonder if these feelings are what i truly feel at all.
i don't know what i'm doing, or what to do anymore.
life sucks. D':
