I had one hell of a movie marathorn this week!
Awesome movies with awesome people!
Thanks Gen for meeting me so last minute!
Sorry Clara for being late, and thanks for making me watch
Hannah Montana and all the talks we had!
However, I feel like I should spend more time with my family
cause it seems like I'm missing out on a lot due
to my crazy commitment to dance and yah... dance...
Last time, it was my mum who didn't have time for me
cause she was always at work and earning money to
support the household, cause she was a single parent...
But at least we got to spend most of the weekends together....!
And when I was still doing latin, we spent practically
every day together that year... and of course, with my brother Ryan...
the three of us were so tight and somehow,
I would automatically hate anyone who came between us...
But Mum got married and it was impossible to hate
my step-dad cause he is such a sweet and nice person,
and I saw that my mum had finally found happiness...
I told myself over and over and over and over again that year,
as long as Mumie is happy, I will be happy...
But I never thought that it would be so hard to talk to her after that...
Now, it seems like it is me who doesn't have time for family...
I'm not working, but my school and cca are taking up
so much time that I can barely keep up myself, let alone my mum...
so many things I wanted to tell her that happened in school
but I can never because either I'm not around, or she's not around...
one entire year of events to tell her about,
she missed an entire year of my life save for waves 13,
which she came for the free matinee show with Ryan and two of my aunts...
it seems like I can talk to anyone about school but her...
I don't know how to talk to her cause it's just been too long,
and it just seems so hard to open up to her now...
dance is a big thing, cause it's what I've always wanted to do...
it seems like i've given up on tell her what's going on
in my life long ago, because when i do talk about it she
just seems uninterested or just to tired or,
she's got something else to talk to me about, like my phone bill,
my sleeping habits, my diet, my weight and everything else
that seems to be a huge issue in my life...
i need serious help.